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For some reason I'm getting this incredible urge to draw. WTF is this!? I can not draw, I kid you not, and I'm not saying it to be modest or to beg for praise but because it's the 100% truth, haha. I can't draw. And yet now I want to. Baaaadly. Maybe it's a some kind of subconscious try to escape packing?

Packing, since I'm gonna go back to Joensuu tomorrow. Studies begin, have to leave my parents' place. A part of me is thrilled and another part does not want. Meeeh. But it doesn't change the fact that tomorrow I go.

I've been writing! These past two days or so, and I'm enjoying it a lot again and I have a feeling I'm maybe getting the hang of it. Maybe. I hope! Here, have a sample of a currently eight page long fic in progress 8D

He smiled at the certainty in the statement. Die did love him, that was not the issue. But that he knew he wasn’t the only one. As honest as those feelings might’ve been… it didn’t do much good if there was something to always hold him back. There was love, and there was love going both ways in this relationship, but he wasn’t sure if it would be enough. Enough to make them last, that was. He did love Die enough to let him go when he would have to. And that time might come sooner than he expected.

Anyone who guesses who that is in the snippet with Die will get a cookie 8D

And to justify this entry, have the next part of the meme.

Day 01 - Introduce Yourself
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

Uhm, a lot? In the morning I ate a yogurt (or not really, it's one of these cold porridges in a plastic cup with some jam but yeah) before I went to school. Then, after the physics lesson and chemistry lesson I came home (around noon) and ate some deep frosted (but then warmed, haha) sweet&sour chicken with jasmine rice. Then more maths (school ended at three), shopping with mom, and afterwards I made us pepper chicken (yeah yeah two chicken dishes a day) with cheese filled ravioli. Then I had a piece of a chocolate cake mom made, and one nectarine. Now half an hour ago (it's 23:40 now) I had three pancakes. I think that covers it x) Have to eat well these last days at my parents' before I go back to paying my own food.

Also, my tooth still aches. And I do realize I'm getting annoying, updating so often, but bear with me XD

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I think the snippet is a ToshiyaxDie lol

*laughs* Kind of. It will lead to T/D in the end but at that point, it's not that yet 8D

Hahah I was almost right Teeee-heeee lol.

And Good luck at College I just finished with a class and I'll be going back September too....urg I don't to go lol

Goood girl XD

I don't wanna go either x) It'd be so much nicer to just enjoy free days and all XD But it'll have to be done. And good luck to you, too! :)

LOL XDDD...

Yea that's true. Good luck, how many years of college do you have left, I have 10 lol

10? Oh god that is a lot! I am now starting my last year, hopefully. So I have either one year or then 1½ years.

I'm going to be a doctor/Surgeon or Autopsy specialist hahah I've got awhile lolz.

ooh what are you going for :)

Oh I can imagine. I'm going to be a teacher :) Which means six to seven years in the university and now I'm starting the sixth x)

AWWW wow!!! Good Luck!

But Kätzchen...when you feek that urge, you should GO for it ^___^ Just try it, maybe make some small piccies, nothing huge, nothing of importance, but only something for YOU, something that means a lot to YOU, because that' definitely going to make you happy, too ♥

and poor girl - I still have one month without studying, and I am so goddamn happy about that, too :-(

Aw thank you ♥ That now made me smile :) If I'm still feeling like this tomorrow, I might just go for it *laughs* Now it's too big of a mess in my room to even find a pen XD

heh lucky you! This is my last year of studying, probably, so I'm just thinking that it's soon over XD

*laughs* That reminds me of my big moving.out action two years ago; I think you couldn't even make normal steps in my room anymore XD

Jeez, time definitely raced, didn't it? You're nearly done again.

(and getting this icon made ME utterly happy, too @*^^*@)

*laughs* That sounds typical XD I can still walk in here but otherwise everything is pretty messy and most of the things are packed.

Yeah I know. It feels like I just started! But I hope I can get everything done now properly and actually finish the studies too x)

It exists for bringing happiness! :)

But un-packing stuff is usually combined with loooots of fun; putting everything at its right place and such ^_~

I think you will. You've always been a hardworker, you will reach your goal just as you planned.

! It definitely does ^.^

That's true, too! Except that my student apartment is so small I can't fit everything in there properly and that causes frustration *laughs*

Well, I don't know, I have a feeling I don't work half as hard as I should on anything x) I'm quite lazy. But I'll try my bestest!

<3

For some reason I'm getting this incredible urge to draw.

ME TOO!

Die/Kaokao? ;p

YAAAY! haha maybe it's a sign that we should, actually, draw XD

Nope! haha although that is a very good guess knowing it's me writing it XD

I did! I did! Yesterday... tomorrow maybe I'll finish it...?

DK - :D

Good luck for finishing it, then! :D

It's a bit rarer pair, this time x)

DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT

girls, get yourself big crayons and watercolours and pencils and paper and start doodling and drawing and coloring and just enjoy the process. draw away <3

Nope! haha although that is a very good guess knowing it's me writing it XD

ooooo. intriguing. i think i know for sure who it isn't, so then it is Kyo hahahaha.

I think I'll have to, since I've now been feeling like drawing for several days *laughs* The last time I wanted to draw was like... ten years ago. So maybe it's about time!

*laughs* No. Still not XD

Shinya.............. xD

Not Shinya either *laughs*

I'm guessing DiexKyo just for the fun of it, haha...

Go draw something, it'll be fun! Sometimes I feel that urge, too, and then I just scribble around a bit. The outcome is mostly eyes and/or hair, lol, because I'm best at drawing these two things XD

I wish you all the best for your last year at the university. It's over so quickly...

Not bad but it's not the right answer *laughs*

hehe maybe I should. But I honestly am so bad at it XD I never did it much, I guess I'm so out of practice *laughs* Or I did draw when I was small, clearly under ten.

Thank you! :) I know, the time just flies by! All too fast. But well, I'm kinda getting fed up with studying too XD

I'm excited to see who it is ^^

It doesn't have to be the new Mona Lisa, you know xD It doesn't even have to be a person or animal or whatever, drawing shapes can be fun, too. Or illustrating some of your favorite lyrics, making a written collage with them... Okay, that's not really drawing, but you can make the letters look freaky or neat or whatever you like really. I liked doing that with Diru lyrics and songs especially since many of them created a specific picture in my mind. Does any of this even make sense? xD I think I explained it poorly, sorry.

I was very very fed up with studying, too. Now I wish I had another year to look forward to XD But it really is annoying after a while x)

It already got guessed right XD

Don't worry, I understand perfectly what you mean! haha right now I'm channeling all my energy into cleaning up my room so let's see if I ever get to the drawing part XD Sounds like fun though!

I guess we always want what we can't have XD

I saw it just a bit after posting the comment XD *hits head on the desk*

Good, I don't think I would've got it myself if I'd read it, lol. At least you can use your energy to do something, that's good too. But if you ever get to drawing something, I wanna see it ;D

Yeah, most of the time xD

Drawwwwwww! When you get the urge to draw, draw! Go go go!
Doesn't matter if you're not that good, just do some little doodle things or something.

... Is it Die/Miyavi? :O

And no, you're not getting annoying. Shush.

I'll try when I manage to unpack, I guess, if the feeling is still there XD

*throws confetti* Yaaay! \8D/ You're the first one to solve the big mystery! *offers promised cookies*

♥

Okay, that's fair enough. If I ever see you in real life though, I'm making you draw.

Woooooo *noms on cookies* Aha, I don't think anyone else would've thought of them together tbh xD Not exactly a common pairing

What do you mean "if"?

Weeeeeell true XD People seem to be more keen on pairing Miyavi together with Toshiya. Buuuut somehow I've had this soft spot for him with Die for long 8D So now it's finally the time to do something about that!

... Should it be 'when'? D:

By the way this is how I'm nomming mah coookie:

Even with the slightly creepy staring at the end. Cute eh? xD Like a little hamster.

Aha, and I bet they do that so they can write them both as hyperactive fifteen year old girls in dresses that giggle when they look at each other's cocks.

Eeeee, they're good togetherrrrr <3 I feel like writing at the moment but I don't really know what .__.

And yes, Die, you give me dirty thoughts. But you could do that even without a sausage hanging from your mouth.

Yes!

*laughs* Yeah the stare is slightly creepy but it's still adorable XD I approve!

Something like that. Or then because it gives them a Tosh/Tosh since everyone keeps on saying how Myvs mimicked Toshiya at some point. I dunno. And I do like that pair too at times but it's gonna lose to D/M anytime 8D

Wrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrite! Write write! Write something nice and hot 8D How about a seductive Die who knows what he wants and is out to get it? ;D

Die has that tendency. He gives me dirty thoughts regularly, too. I blame him for making it so difficult to concentrate on school or work.

Wooo :D I'll start packing!

*coughs* ... It's not as creepy as this one

That's how I looked at my cookie before I ate it. Poor thing had no chance.

Bah people are silly. I'm sure it can be a really nice pair, but I don't trust people to write it properly xD They are actually men. To be honest, I don't think I've seen Myv acting 'girly' just kinda... mental xD and boyish.

You should know me well enough by now to know that me and hot don't go together :/ But hmm... seductive Die sounds nice. Seductive Die who isn't afraid to be a bossy bottom xD

He just oozes dirtiness. Giving me random sex dreams and what not. -___- It's totally irresponsible of him.

Yaay! :D

haha oh didn't you have any pity for the poor cookie?

*laughs* I don't think I've seen him act girly either. Then again, Toshiya doesn't act girly either. Never really did *shrugs* They are just labeled the girls for some reason, poor boys.

If you don't want to go for full-on hotness, you can leave it at the seduction XD Die can be all horny and seductive and you can end the fic where he finally gets where he wanted, aka in the bedroom. Oh man, I LOVE him as the bossy bottom! <3

He does! He invades our brains. Or what's left of 'em.

*refrains from posting another heechul gif depicting my excitement of the thought of going to finland... which is tough because i've found some perfect ones for the occasion*

Must stop being a fangirl must stop being a fangirl must stop being a fangirl... ;____;

Hah! Does it look like I had any pity for it? No! I said "you're mine, mr cookie" and nommed it right up like a hamster.

No, Toshi doesn't act girly at all. He's just lucky enough to be exceptionally beautiful. Or maybe unlucky? I like them like men. If I wanted Die to be fucking a girl, I'd write/read het.

I'm tired now .___. I'll try tomorrow. Though I have my weird complicated Toshiya-in-hospital thing lurking in a folder somewhere I could be getting on with :/ Hmmmm...

He makes such a wonderful bossy bottom. Not a submissive little 'uke' bitch. A sexy strong man that can admit he likes getting fucked.

He's totally destroyed mine :/ Boo, Die, boo.

*laughs* You can post all the gifs you want, dear XD And stopping being a fangirl is no alternative! You're stuck with it, for good ;)

Poor cookie. Then again, it was its purpose in life. To be eaten. Kind of sad.

I like them like men, too. And if you ask me Die is the most beautiful one 8D Yet he THANKFULLY isn't usually written the girly girl. Lucky guy XD

I was tired too, hence I disappeared and went to bed XD Now I got a weird, weird urge to tidy up and have been tearing my room apart in the progress. I threw everything on the floor from the shelves and now should get it back XD

Such a wonderful bossy bottom indeed! I think that's how I like him the best in fics. He is in charge, although it might not seem like it from the first second on 8D And Toshiya loves it *coughs*

"A sexy strong man that can admit he likes getting fucked."

EXACTLY. And it takes more balls to admit that than to pretend you're all macho.

Okay, fine.

You'll regret saying that xD I've found one for pretty much every occasion. I know but it's not good when I don't know people with the same feelings. I can't even fangirl to the person that got me into them because she has different favourites to me -___-

It is kind of sad... but I'm sure that it is happy in the knowledge that it was very tasty and satisfying.

Ahaha, really? I'd have never guessed you thought that about him, Marjo! You've hidden it so well xD But I think so too <3 On the inside and outside. Yeah which is a bit weird coz it seems he has more 'feminine' traits than Toshiya does xD At least in my opinion.

That's fair enough xD Whereas I made myself too hyper to sleep. Ahaha, I'm imagining you like Godzilla now, rampaging round the room, throwing stuff on the floor.

Aha, I'd never have guessed that either! xD But yes, that's the best way <3 I don't really like the idea of one being submissive and the other dominant. I'd like it as equal as possible to be honest. Ah, Toshiya likes him bossy, definitely.

Yes yes yes ;3

*laughs* Oh I won't regret it, I promise XD Those usually make me laugh anyway x) Aw and I know what you mean. I suffer from the lack of fangirling opportunities regularly, too.

You're right, it probably is!

Oh I know, I try to keep it hidden and only reveal the big secret to the ones I trust 8D But Die is the most beautiful thing ever ♥ In all the possible ways. haha and YES he does have more girly traits than Toshiya, or anyone else in the band XD Already the way Die sometimes holds his hand on his hip while he stands. Or flips his hair! Oh gosh, he is full of these and I love him for it! ♥

It was something like that XD The new Godzilla! Though half of the stuff is now again on the shelves!

*coughs* I'm just that full of surprises, right? 8D And yes, equality for the win. Which is why I detest these pairs based on idolization or idealizing or brotherly feelings so strongly.

what a lovely snippet, I'm curious for the rest of it :D

Thank you :D haha I hope I can write it properly XD I have one part done but it should be a five-part fic so it'll take a while x)

oh my~ :O in that case I can't wait to read it 8] But don't worry no rush, I understand how long it can take to write something that long x3

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