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I really don't know whether to smile or cry since he just is so precious. Look at that smile~♥ All this hate and bashing makes me so sad since how could anyone deserve something like it, especially someone who is pure sunshine and sweetness and talent. I'm just so incredibly, unbelievably happy to see him smiling. Oh bb things'll turn out fine~♥

In other news, I'm struggling through the physics reports. Hopefully with a little help from a friend I'll manage to finish the ones that need to be worked through MatLab during the weekend! It'd mean a huge load off my shoulders and maybe I'd manage to relax a little bit. Even if it means moving over to the two thesis I have to write. It's still one thing less to worry about!

Next Tuesday, I'll be traveling to Helsinki to see Dir en grey and I still somehow didn't realize it's happening. I bet I'll get all excited in the train on the way there while right now I'm just all "..." and barely think of it *laughs*

I also again lost the prescription to my painkillers. I don't know how I manage. All the other prescriptions I always have safe but the damn painkillers D: And those are the most essential ones. Thankfully I don't need them for a while now.

Plus I feel like it's been ages since I talked to some people, but I don't know how to take initiative again. I feel like I'm only hanging on to them and being an annoying brat, and I think I'm not going to last long anymore without any signs of, you know, it being a two-way-street.

My back is killing me. I'm off to write a monster fic I'll never finish.

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I'm working on my thesis now - it should be done till September if I want to get my diploma this term D: It's not going that well, writing in English is hard... Good luck with your work ;) it's hard to do but that satisfaction you have later that you have already done it ;)

Monster ff? Like SJ monster ff with real monsters? I miss ff too~ and this thesis is so boring I feel so inspired to ff... You know it's not even like stories more like such pictures or little scenes with them - like them being stuck in some serious traffic jam ~~and some weird bad things happening ;) like the apocalypse starting ;) thing~~ and them interacting. I've had some nice ff this morning - here it be. It's Kyo/Toshiya but the reason I loved it is Die. ;) So err, little recommendation I suppose... ;)

Oh I can imagine it's hard. I can write everything in Finnish but the material is in English and that is already hard enough. It's so stressful working against a time-limit but I've got to admit, without one there'd never be any work done.

I was more referring to the sheer amount of writing it needs, it's probably the longest fic I've written... or in the process of writing. Although it does include werewolves, do they count as monsters? x) ahaha I have an apocalypse fic in the works too though. We just won't get rid of the apocalyptic themes now, eh? XD And thanks for the recommendation, I'll check it later :)

I know I know. With the thesis it is I write it write it write it and it's all me gusta B-) then after a while I reread it and it's NO ME GUSTA D: Or the other way - I me gusta what I didn't me gusta while writing it.

Werewolves are classic monsters (that actually are monsters in the same time too - like vampires are classic monster movie's monsters but technically they are more like dead people so at least in my private (and me thinks in Polish culture as well) view they are considered something ghost-like, while monsters should have pulse (or something pulse-like - they should be alive from biological pov).

Anyways, it turned out today I CAN'T GO to their live BAWWWWWWWWWWWW ;_; my friend can't go, it is whole weekend wasted while I have to work and life suxz.... Oh well, it's my fault. But while I'm done I will do something for me that you will hopefully like as well.

Goodluck with your papers, thesis and ff (it's SJ, isn't it? ;)

Edited 2011-08-18 20:04 (UTC)

haha I know, I'm always like that too. I'm all happy that it's amazing text and then I re-read it and go all D: since it sucks, or vice versa.

Oh, that does make sense, kinda. I never thought of the difference between monsters and ghosts for example. The wider definition of "monster" would fit all of it, everything supernatural including ghosts and vampires and whatever. But in the literal sense... hmmm.

Aw that sucks D: I'm so sorry! Just... it happens. Sadly ;__;

Thank you! I'm working on them ;D (yes it is x) though I do have that huge apocalyptic crossover fic in the works too!)

huge apocalyptic crossover fic? ;)

DEG/SJ? :D :D :D xD

Good luck with finishing the physics reports!!! Did you retrieve the data you needed...? (I think I remember you writing something like that... '____') And one less thing off one's mind is always good!

HAHA, I wasn't excited until the lights went out in the hall. XDD Oh sweetie, I hope it's going to be amazing. You deserve it! :)

You need prescriptions for the painkillers? D: Are they that strong or is it just like that in Finland...? I always just buy my painkillers like that.... (well, if I needed stronger ones, I guess I'd need a prescription, too.)

Argh, and this kind of situation with people is always so awkward. :| Even now, there are people that, even though I just know them over the web, used to be such a big part of my life, but it's all kinda drifted apart. It's kinda sad, but that's the way things go, apparenlty... :|

MONSTER FICS ARE FUN!!!! Haha. XDDD I used to have one that I never finished either... but I remember the feeling of being able to write this huge-ass twisted plot just because YOU HAVE ROOM FOR IT. Haha. XD

Thank you! haha no I didn't but a friend seems to know where to get it so I'm hoping things'll work out fine x) We'll see!

I hope so too! haha it'd better be! XD But I'm often not excited in advance and then end up loving it so I'm not too worried :)

They're that strong. Usually I take normal painkillers or try to avoid them altogether. But for my period pains I need the strong ones that have some cramps relaxing thing in them too.

Exactly :/ It's sad, but I dunno what to do about it really. Plus I'm tired of being always the one to nag and try. But then again I'm whining about this so much, maybe I should just let it go :/

haha I am loving it, in general, but now I'm kind of stuck with it and it's so frustrating! I wanna proceed but I don't know how XD I suppose I just have to work through it bit by bit.

I'm surprised he wore that shirt, it's not very fashionable! But on a serious note my god he is so talented. He's honestly better vocally than a lot of the "main" group, it sucks that he can't show it very often since he's stuck in a subgroup constantly .____.

Have fun at Diru! The second time I went to an SM Town concert I wasn't properly excited until I got inside the venue (although that might have been because I was too busy worrying about travel arrangements, haha).

Good luck with your thesis too, hwaiting! \o/

I thought I was being stupid when I thought it wasn't very fashionable. But I chalked it up to me knowing nothing about fashion, haha. Good to know I'm not the only one who thought so. It does suck he's only stuck in a subgroup when he's got so much to give :/ He'd deserve his chance to shine~

Thank youuu~ haha I worry about everything and nothing and come up with things that can go wrong and I suppose that takes some excitement away or something. But I hope it'll be fun!

Aw thank you~♥ it's a constant pain in the backside but I hope this'll all be over by Christmas!

Not that I'm a fashion expert myself but he usually dresses so well and that shirt just clashes with literally everything... He must have been having an off day!

I definitely agree lmao when I worry about something it's pretty much all I think about until it's over or goes away, so it's hard to be excited until I'm actually right there and the concert has started. But I'm sure you'll have a good time when it happens! :D

umm *curious* what do you take the painkillers for?

and good luck with your report!

For my period pains.

Thank you! :D

eeeeee it's that horrible? >_< I hope you'll find your prescription soon!

It's pretty damn bad :/ This is the fourth or fifth type of painkillers I'm trying XD And the first that works mostly.

I just don't understand the hate stuff at all! Why in hell do you want to spend your time hating? Christ! Use that time to show your love and support to your idols! Me no understand! People are so goddamn stupid! I'll just keep on loving and supporting! It brightens up my daily life!

I'm off to write a monster fic I'll never finish.
My first though was a horror fic too xD Slightly related, did you finish that Ada/Leon fic? If you did, I've missed it!

Exactly! Rather love than hate, in all possible situations! I'm much much happier focusing on the love than on the hate~ And Mimi is precious~ ;~;♥

It kind of has monsters but nothing to do with horror XD Oh, I finished it but I didn't post it yet! It turned out a bit weird :/ I wanted it to be hot but it's kind of angsty.

He is sweet and a darling and I would LOVE to get my hands on at least ONE of those bitchy fangirls who bash him and say he doesn't belong to the band and all that shit. It drives me insane to know that it is like that.

"What would you do if I sang out of tune? Would you stand up and walk out on me" => your 'With a little help from a friend' reminded me of this XD What a great, great song.

You are so incredibly mean, I hope you know that. Now I'm so damn infatuated with the boys that I know I will hang on Youtube whenever I can and watch clips, watch Yesung fail spectacularly but sososo sweetly, too. And I want that mag with those amazing pics, or the scans. I am determined to find it somewhere for less than 30EUR, honestly. The Dollar has to drop a bit more *laughs* I was already thinking if I should go to my asian foodstore and ask the nice Korean owner if she doesn't have a relative who would send it to me XD

You and your prescriptions hun. Take better care of the one for the painkillers!

Ahaha, I know exactly how you feel. But trust me, the shows so far were good. It all depends on the audience but man, if they are like they were in Bochum, and I bet you Finns are even better, then it should be awesome!

I wish you so much fun!

Oh, and one more thing. Do write to the ppl you want to re-contact. With me, I often forget to mail, want to mail, push it along and then I'm happy as a pig in shit when a friend just writes and one babbles again. If the contact then dies again quickly, you know that it wasn't worth it anyway.

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